I haven't cried about this in a week now. I don't know what's happened just now...but it's started all over again. The feeling of pain and betrayal and hurt and ... just the pain. This was not supposed to happen. You were meant to be stronger than this. I was meant to be stronger than this. The futility of these tears strike me even as they roll down my face. But they keep coming and coming and coming...they just won't stop. Stupid...stupid... achy breaky heart.