It was a year of "firsts" for me... First finals, first major operation, first job...and many other firsts that I shall not mention. (I'd love to recount some of my favourite memories, but I don't want to bore anyone!)
The year, honestly, did not start out well. There were problems amongst my friends, and even little skirmishes at home. Just before mid-year, I thought everything had been laid to rest. But then...a student died...then I landed up in the hospital and had to go through a month or two of painful recovery. Yes, it was painful, I felt helpless, I hated my life at that time, I felt stripped of every element of my independence...these facts I chose not to share with many; I did not want anyone's pity. Now that the time has passed, I can make light of it. Finally I started working at a newspaper as an intern and had loads of fun, and made good friends there. College started again...and from October I was thrown into a veritable whirlwind. Since then, I can honestly say that I haven't been able to rest completely...something or the other has always been happening. Unexpected things. Good things. Shocking things. Not-so-good things. A mixture of everything. I don't know whom to thank for making my Bombay trip possible... Ah, I truly rested that one week. And then it was back to the daily grind.
My friends have been amazing this year...they've supported me in everything...they've been there when I faltered...when I felt no one was there to help me pick up the pieces, they were there. My friends, you know who you are...and I love you all for being there for me. And Mum...if you hadn't been there after my operation, I wouldn't have made it...honestly.
But one point to be made: I do not regret much in 2006. I don't think I'd want to change wot happened (okay, maybe one or two things...I'd give ANYTHING to change them!!!), and that's what I expect always: not to regret anything in my life. No really...it's odd, but gratifying that I don't have regrets.
What do I expect out of 2007? Nothing. I don't want to expect anything and be disappointed. I'll just do wot Bilbo did...and keep walking on the road and not know or care where I'm going until I get there.
- The Road goes ever on and on
- Down from the door where it began.
- Now far ahead the Road has gone,
- And I must follow, if I can,
- Pursuing it with eager feet,
- Until it joins some larger way
- Where many paths and errands meet.
- And whither then? I cannot say.